Help me find the guy who started my downward spiral?

I'm 19 now, but when I was 14, there was a guy online that talked me into sneaking out and giving him oral. He was in his mid to late twenties at the time and his name is Todd, I don't know his last name but his sn was ToddLvGolf. It still bothers me often that this happened. That someone would do this to a kid. He often would tell me when I'm ready he wanted to be my first. I want to find him, at least know where he is. I don't know yet if I want to communicate with him but I want to know if he's still in my vicinity or if he moved. Just can someone help me out.